My Confusing Analysis

An exploiter, or what I'll call an angry man, is a specialist or an expert or one who relies on others of this nature to do his work.  An angry man efficiently pursues his goals of which profit, whether in pay, interest, investment or hot tamales and pigs ass porter, is dominant.  An angry man would prefer someone else do the work and pay him for that priveledge.  An angry man is organized and meticulous, breaking things down into their understandable parts - numbers, quantities, and logical emotional outcomes.  He serves himself and in such a way is manipulated by institutions and others.  He doesn't believe in mystery because mystery is randomness.  An angry man, deep inside, is rage. 

A nurturer sounds like a pansy ass communist.  I'm going to call him instead - Salt of the Earth, John the Agrarian, Greeny, or how about The Milk Man.  The Milk Man is a generalist.  His goal is to make things grow - his family, his land, his neighbor, his dog.  The Milk Man would prefer to do work himself, or with familiar people that like a good porter and have useful hands.  He wants it done well which the angry man can quantify in terms of margins and strain tests but can't justify because of the massive inefficiencies of cost in labor and skill.  The Milk Man fishes with flys he's tied himself and the angry man fishes with worms, or dynamite, or 10000 volts of electricity. 

See how the angry man creeps into all our thinking.  He's easy to understand so we can say, see, this is not the Milkman.  But that's like hunting for Bear and shooting a Cottontail.  Creeping up on the dead rabbit, you whisper to your partner, "See, now this is a great example of what a Bear is not."  This is because the Milkman strains for an order that we do not understand, that he knows is a mystery.  He thinks in terms of character, condition, quality, and kind which means he thinks in terms of poetry.  Everything gets darker for the Milkman.  His is the way of ignorance.

I broke these down to understand them a little better for myself.  Some of these ideas I intimately understand and some I only know.  I can see quite clearly that I'm both men at any given time.  Sometimes I'm the milkman bringin home the nurturin and sometimes I'm angry as hell.  And I think, also, there are areas where I'm angry and don't even know it.  I'm often an exploiter by default if I don't choose my mindset.  Where?