Thursday, April 29, 2010

Never The Authors of Our Best Hope

Sometimes, (should be most times) I just have to let Wendell speak because he says it so damned well.

The conclusion to Wendell's, "Preface: The Joy of Sales Resistance". 

But however much I may change my mind, I will never agree with those saleswomen and salesmen who suggest that if I will only do as they say, all will be fine. All, dear reader, is not going to be fine. Even if we all agreed with all the saints and prophets, all would not be fine. For we would still be mortal, partial, suffering poor creatures, not very intelligent and never the authors of our best hope.

Yours sincerely,
Wendell Berry

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

On Education

Its good to know that Wendell can be a sarcastic son of a bitch too. Makes me feel better. This is his "Preface: The Joy of Sales Resistance" from Sex, Economy, Freedom and Community all of which is a worthy read.  It's this type of writing and candid snarkiness that endears the old poet to me.  I imagine him walking in from the field at a brisk pace, spinning his desk chair into place, putting his feet up and snapping off a few lead points in his rush to get down the gem of a thought that's just come to him.  Or maybe thats just me minus the gem.  Either way, its his prefaces often enough that make me laugh, frown, squirm and snort with pleasure.  Here's an excerpt. 
Actually, as we know, the new commercial education is fun for everybody. All you have to do in order to have or to provide such an education is to pay your money (in advance) and master a few simple truths:

I. Educated people are more valuable than other people because education is a value-adding industry.

II. Educated people are better than other people because education improves people and makes them good.

III. The purpose of education is to make people able to earn more and more money.

IV. The place where education is to be used is called "your career."

V. Anything that cannot be weighed, measured, or counted does not exist.

VI. The so-called humanities probably do not exist. But if they do, they are useless. But whether they exist or not or are useful or not, they can sometimes be made to support a career.

VII Literacy does not involve knowing the meanings of words, or learning grammar, or reading books.

VIII The sign of exceptionally smart people is that they speak a language that is intelligible only to other people in their "field" or only to themselves. This is very impressive and is known as "professionalism."

IX. The smartest and most educated people are the scientists, for they have already found solutions to all our problems and will soon find solutions to all the problems resulting from their solutions to all the problems we used to have.

X. The mark of a good teacher is that he or she spends most of his or her time doing research and writes many books and articles.

XI The mark of a good researcher is the same as that of a good teacher.

XII. A great university has many computers, a lot of government and corporation research contracts, a winning team, and more administrators than teachers.

XIII. Computers make people even better and smarter than they were made by previous thingamabobs.  Or if some people prove incorrigibly wicked or stupid or both, computers will at least speed them up.

XIV. The main thing is, don't let education get in the way of being nice to children. Children are our Future. Spend plenty of money on them but don't stay home with them and get in their way. Don't give them work to do; they are smart and can think up things to do on their own. Don't teach them any of that awful, stultifying, repressive, old-fashioned morality. Provide plenty of TV, microwave dinners, day care, computers, computer games, cars. For all this, they will love and respect us and be glad to grow up and pay our debts.

XV. A good school is a big school.

XVI. Disarm the children before you let them in.

Monday, April 26, 2010

On Screens (Not Screen Doors)

Sara and I picked up some books last night and spent three hours reading.  It was not Wendell I read.  It was just a good story I'd picked up at the book sale.  Wendell, amazing as he is, wears me out.  Reading him is like pushing around a sweaty sumo wrestler with your mind.  Challenging and authentic but exhausting.  I can only handle so much.  This may be because I'm a child of the screen and require a certain amount of easy input to entertain myself and keep from getting depressed.  Ironically, the more I read Wendell the less reading I do in general and if I'm not working on something then I'm laying on the couch staring at a screen of one sort or another.  So it was with some aprobation that I read and read and read to my hearts content and came away with a cinematic buzz without the residual glare in my eyeballs.  I'm not Wendell, but I do love his thoughts on these things even if I'm incapable in my current state of being to follow his example.  

My own phobia or motto is to stay away from screens.  I avoid screens of all kinds.  ...Movie screens, television screens, computer screens.  I'm talking about screens of distraction, that disguise the place where you are.  Books don't do that.  My test is that if you look away from what your doing and the size of your pupils in your eyes has to change then what your doing is wrong.  I believe in ambient light.

Wendell Berry on City Beat Podcast 44.

Welcome To Summer Time

Sunday, April 25, 2010

The 4th Sabbath of April

Darkness

George Gordon, Lord Byron 

I had a dream, which was not all a dream,
The bright sun was extinguish’d, and the stars
Did wander darkling in the eternal space,
Rayless, and pathless; and the icy earth
Swung blind and blackening in the moonless air
Morn came and went—and came, and brought no day,
And men forgot their passions in the dread
Of this their desolation: and all hearts
Were chill’d into a selfish prayer for light:
And they did live by watchfires—and the thrones,
The palaces of crowned kings—the huts,
The habitations of all things which dwell,
Were burnt for beacons; cities were consumed,
And men were gathered round their blazing homes
To look once more into each other’s face
Happy were those who dwelt within the eye
Of the volcanoes, and their mountain-torch:
A fearful hope was all the world contained;
Forests were set on fire—but hour by hour
They fell and faded—and the crackling trunks
Extinguish’d with a crash—and all was black.
The brows of men by the despairing light
Wore an unearthly aspect, as by fits
The flashes fell upon them; some lay down
And hid their eyes and wept; and some did rest
Their chins upon their clenched hands and smiled;
And others hurried to and fro, and fed
Their funeral piles with fuel, and look’d up
With mad disquietude on the dull sky,
The pall of a past world; and then again
With curses cast them down upon the dust,
And gnash’d their teeth and howl’d: the wild birds shriek’d,
And, terrified, did flutter on the ground.
And flap their useless wings; the wildest brutes
Came tame and tremulous; and vipers crawl’d
And twined themselves among the multitude,
Hissing, but stingless—they were slain for food:
And War, which for a moment was no more,
Did glut himself again:—a meal was bought
With blood, and each sate sullenly apart
Gorging himself in gloom: no love was left;
All earth was but one thought—and that was death
Immediate and inglorious; and the pang
Of famine fed upon all entrails—men
Died, and their bones were tombless as their flesh;
The meagre by the meagre were devour’d,
Even dogs assail’d their masters, all save one,
And he was faithful to a corse, and kept
The birds and beasts and famish’d men at bay,
Till hunger clung them, or the dropping dead
Lured their lank jaws; himself sought out no food,
But with a piteous and perpetual moan,
And a quick desolate cry, licking the hand
Which answer’d not with a caress—he died.
The crowd was famish’d by degrees; but two
Of an enormous city did survive,
And they were enemies: they met beside
The dying embers of an altar-place,
Where had been heap’d a mass of holy things
For an unholy usage; they raked up,
And shivering scraped with their cold skeleton hands
The feeble ashes, and their feeble breath
Blew for a little life, and made a flame
Which was a mockery; then they lifted up
Their eyes as it grew lighter, and beheld
Each other’s aspects—saw and shriek’d, and died—
Ev’n of their mutual hideousness they died,
Unknowing who he was upon whose brow
Famine had written Fiend. The world was void,
The populous, and the powerful was a lump,
Seasonless, herbless, treeless, manless, lifeless,
A lump of death—a chaos of hard clay.
The rivers, lakes, and ocean all stood still,
And nothing stirr’d within their silent depths;
Ships sailorless lay rotting on the sea,
And their masts fell down piecemeal; as they dropp’d,
They slept on the abyss without a surge—
The waves were dead; the tides were in their grave,
The Moon, their mistress, had expired before;
The winds were wither’d in the stagnant air,
And the clouds perish’d; Darkness had no need
Of aid from them—She was the Universe!

Friday, April 23, 2010

Storyhill

Some local boys just released their newest album, The Shade Of The Trees.  Some different sounds and some of their classic sounds and all acoustic.  These guys never grow old.  And if there's an artist you'd actually expect to end up around a campfire with it would be them.  And did I mention they're local boys.  Sweet.

I place this link to amazon with the utmost reservation.  If you happen to be a local you should go to their show at the brewery on Wednesday and get their album.  I, fortunately of course, have family obligations which are a Wendellian pain in the ass at times, but as the mad farmer so elequently says,
...man's only real freedom is to know and faithfully occupy his place - a much humbler place than we have been taught to think - in the order of creation. 
Which means no Storyhill for me.  May you enjoy the show, the non-electronic accoustic vibrations, the beer, the stories, the fantastic lyricism and above all a place with friends.

On Books

I'm victorious! I've succeeded in buying a work by Wendell Berry locally at one of the greater institutions of this fine country: the library booksale.  The teeth grinding lack of local Berry books is finally abated by a beautiful copy of, Sex, Economy, Freedom and Community in the social sciences section and an hour into the wonderful ordeal of purusing thousands of titles with an exponentially increasing weight hanging from your arms.  Three months of looking for one book.  Holy mother of all that is good and right.  Can there be a worse success rate on record.  (Not counting every government program concieved in the last century.) I'm at the point of giving up on this local quest for Berry.  Stephen King, Mary Higgins Clark, or Danielle Steele: no problem.  Wendell Berry: different story. 

That's the problem with Wendell really.  Looking for him at a used book bonanza, whether store or sale is like trying to find the rarest of snipes.  (A local bird about which I won't tell if you don't know.)  The man can't be pinned down or defined.  What does he write?  Well, he's a poet, essayist, novelist, short story afficionado, and mad farmer.  Does that clarify things?  Which section would that be in?  But, regardless, it makes it that much better to catch a copy of the old poet for a buck under some local brick and mortar.  Exhilarating and nerdy. My modus operandi really. 

Monday, April 19, 2010

WTBH!

Perhaps it would be cathartic to have a weekly "What The Bloody Hell" file.  I've tried, in vain, to be positive and proactive in my approach to this subject but there is just so much $#!+ out there to be snarky and condescending about that I can hold back no longer.  (Yes, that's right, I've been holding back the sarcasm like Moses and the Red Sea.)

WTBH Case File # 1:  Baby's first cubicle.
Yes that's right.  Perhaps the most depressing toy ever and for only $2600.00.  WTBH.  But my favorite part is the following four star comment on the Little Tikes Website - Young Explorer.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

The 3rd Sabbath of April

Introduction to Poetry

by Billy Collins

I ask them to take a poem
and hold it up to the light
like a color slide

or press an ear against its hive.

I say drop a mouse into a poem
and watch him probe his way out,

or walk inside the poem's room
and feel the walls for a light switch.

I want them to waterski
across the surface of a poem
waving at the author's name on the shore.

But all they want to do
is tie the poem to a chair with rope
and torture a confession out of it.

They begin beating it with a hose
to find out what it really means

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

On A Fine Work



I'm in a pensive mood.  The basement project is going well and is in the trim stage.  Everything now is progress of the best possible type: the type that isn't prologued.  It is, however, chronically consuming.  Hence my abject lack of postings.  Still, I've been consequently thinking of work in its more philisophical manifestations. 

The philosophy of which I speak is most evident in the vanity aisle at Lowes.  Rather, it comes from the vanity aisle for it was there that I bought a cabinet for the bathroom in a moment of desperation brought on by a poverty of funds and time.  What a piece of ^%*.  It wasn't cheap but wasn't expensive.  It looks nice enough though it isn't plum, square, or true.  I had to clamp the top together to pull the staples in and plumb it up.  This was egregious workmanship but I'm in a tough spot there because I'd rather do it myself but I don't have the time nor do I have the money to pay a craftsman to do it because, for god's sake they're a specialty class we refer to as artisans.  They've taken on a luxury role in our society.  The sad thing is it would cost less and look better and be better If I'd do it myself but I don't have the time so I'm forced to buy crap from China.  How does this happen?  Perhaps, may I propose, the old farmer take a crack at this. 
We know, too, that these mechanical substitutions are part of a long established process.  The industrial economy has made its way among us by a process of division, degredation, and then replacement.  It is only after we have been divided against each other that work and the products of work can be degraded; it is only after work and its products have been degraded that workers can be replaced by machines.  Only when thought has been degraded can a mind be replaced by a machine, or a society of experts, or a government.
Men and Women in Search of Common Ground
And the work of the tradesman or laborer or factory worker, though it deals with material things, tends to be as mind-dominated and abstract as that of the executive.  The industrial laborer subserves an economic idea instituted in machines and in mechanized procedures.  This is as far as possible from the work of the traditional craftsman or artist, whose making has never resembled what we now call "manufacture," but is a cooperation and conversation of mind and body and idea and material.  The true craftsman does not waste materials because his or her art involves respect for materials.  And the craftsman's products are not wasted because by their quality and durability they earn respect. 
Racism and the Economy
Always, when I think of work and its true nature I think of Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn's A Day In The Life Of Ivan Denisovich.  When Shukhov builds his wall, he does it well for no other reason than the craft and joy of it.  There are no other considerations.  Even threat of death does not deter him from doing something well and admiring it as such.  Even in the inhuman confines of a gulag there is craftsmanship. What does that say about the vanity aisle of Lowes.  Worse than a Soviet Gulag?  Perhaps it is.  Perhaps it is. 

And Shukhov no longer had eyes for the distant view, the glare of the sun on snow, the laborers struggling back from their warm hiding places to finish digging holes started that morning, or to strengthen the wire mesh for concrete, or put up trusses in the workshops. Shukhov saw only the wall in front of him, from the left-hand corner, where the brickwork rose in steps waist-high, to the right corner, where Kildigs's wall began. He showed Senka where to clear away the ice, and hacked away zealously himself, using blade and shaft by turns, so that ice splinters flew in all directions, sometimes hitting him in the face. He worked fast and skillfully, but without thinking about it. His mind and his eyes were studying the wall, the facade of the Power Station, two cinder blocks thick, as it showed from under the ice. Whoever had been laying there before was either a bungler or a slacker. Shukhov would get to know every inch of that wall as if he owned it. That dent there — it would take three courses to make the wall flush, with a thicker layer of mortar every time. That bulge couldn't be straightened out in less than two courses. He ran an invisible ruler over the wall, deciding how far he would lay from the stepped brickwork in the corner, and where Senka would start working toward Kildigs on his right. Kildigs wouldn't hold back at the corner, he decided, but would lay a few blocks for Senka to help him out. While they were tinkering in the corner, Shukhov would rush more than half the wall up, so he and Senka wouldn't be left behind. He sized up how many blocks he should have ready, and where.

...Slap on the mortar! Slap on a block! Press it down a bit. Make sure it's straight. Mortar. Block. Mortar. Block.

The foreman had ordered them not to worry about wasting mortar, to chuck it over the wall and take off. But Shukhov was the sort of fool who couldn't let anything or anybody's work go to waste, and nobody would ever teach him better.

Mortar! Block! Mortar! Block!

"Enough, damn it!" Senka shouted. "Time to be off!"

He grabbed a handbarrow and was away down the ramp.

If the guards had set their dogs on him, it wouldn't have stopped Shukhov. He moved quickly back from the wall to take a good look. All right. Then quickly up to the wall to look over the top from left to right. Outside straight as could be. Hands weren't past it yet. Eye as good as any spirit level.

He ran down the ramp.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

The 2nd Sabbath of April

Profile of the Night Heron
by Anne Pierson Wiese

In the Brooklyn Botanic Garden the night
heron is on his branch of his tree, blue
moon curve of his body riding low
above the pond, leaves dipping into water
beneath him, green and loose as fingers.
On the far shore, the ibis is where
I left him last time, a black cypher
on his rock. These birds, they go to the right
place every day until they die.

There are people like that in the city,
with signature hats or empty attaché cases,
expressions of private absorption fending
off comment, who attach to physical
locations--a storefront, a stoop, a corner,
a bench--and appear there daily as if for a job.
They negotiate themselves into the pattern
of place, perhaps wiping windows, badly,
for a few bucks, clearing the stoop of take-out
menus every morning, collecting the trash
at the base of the WALK/DON'T WALK sign
and depositing it in the garbage can.

Even when surfaces change, when the Mom & Pop
store becomes a coffee bar, when the park
benches are replaced with dainty chairs and a pebble
border, they stay, noticing what will never change:
the heartprick of longitude and latitude
to home in on, the conviction that life
depends, every day, on what outlasts you.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

On Rivers

Perhaps it is to prepare to hear someday the music of the spheres that I am always turning my ears to the music of streams. There is indeed a music in streams, but it is not for the hurried. It has to be loitered by and imagined. Or imagined toward, for it is hardly for men at all. Nature has a patient ear. To her the slowest funeral march sounds like a jig. She is satisfied to have the notes drawn out to the lengths of days or weeks or months. Small variations are acceptable to her, modulations as leisurely as the opening of a flower.

The stream is full of stops and gates. Here it has piled up rocks in its path, and pours over them into a tiny pool it has scooped at the foot of its fall. Here it has been dammed by a mat of leaves caught behind a fallen limb. Here it must force a narrow passage, here a wider one. Tomorrow the flow may increase or slacken, and the tone will shift. In an hour or a week that rock may give way, and the composition will advance by another note. Some idea of it may be got by walking slowly along and nothing the changes as one passes from one little fall or rapid to another. But this is a highly simplified and diluted version of the real thing, which is too complex and widespread ever to be actually heard by us. The ear must imagine an impossible patience in order to grasp even the unimaginableness of such music.

But the creation is musical, and this is a part of its music, as birdsong is, or the words of poets.   
Wendell Berry - A Native Hill.
The wind gusted heavily around the pale trunk of the cottonwood in whose roots I’d taken shelter. I drank beer and watched the river flutter and move with the wind on top of its own perennial motions. The water there came down the shallow rocks and boulders in a fast riffle and turned as it entered a deep corner pool that smoothed out and moved along at a slow pace. I smelled fish every time I lifted the bottle to my lips. He’d been a nice Brown, the size that fights you into your arm. I caught him, killed him, set his golden spotted body alongside the brews in a pocket pool and then sat down in the roots of the tree to watch the river go by. There were more fish in the river. I knew I’d catch them, but it seems at times that the best course of movement and thought is to sit and watch for awhile, especially after setting some violence against the river.

The rock had cracked the trout’s skull with a single hit. I’m not sure what possessed me to keep him. I hadn’t planned on it or against it. Maybe it was the hard weather, the heavy winds and low clouds. Maybe it was the timing, the unfrozen river, the renewal of it, the first taste of its waters, and the first fish, the first born so to speak. Or maybe I just felt violent and hungry. There wasn’t a depth of thought involved and afterwards it seemed natural to wait a moment in the lee afforded by the tree and watch the river go by.

It is in this way that you come to know a place.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

The First Sabbath of April - Easter Sunday

A Prayer for the Self
by John Berryman

Who am I worthless that You spent such pains
and take may pains again?

I do not understand; but I believe.
Jonquils respond with wit to the teasing breeze.

Induct me down my secrets. Stiffen this heart
to stand their horrifying cries, O cushion
the first the second shocks, will to a halt
in mid-air there demons who would be at me.

May fade before, sweet morning on sweet morning,
I wake my dreams, my fan-mail go astray,
and do me little goods I have not thought of,
ingenious & beneficial Father.

Ease in their passing my beloved friends,
all others too I have cared for in a travelling life,
anyone anywhere indeed. Lift up
sober toward truth a scared self-estimate.

Friday, April 2, 2010

On Hands

“Adam, listen, no listen, you must listen………what is important in the relation of man to the world is the hand”.

Adam replies, “The Hand?”

“Yes the Hand!”

To underscore his point, he held up one of his greasy, diesel-soaked , calloused meathooks and then grabbed Nicholson’s wrist and held both hands aloft for the son to ponder.

“As long as the hand is the shaping organism of an enterprise, or a relationship, as long as it is the hand which governs your connections with the world, those connections are healthy, living and warm…..Technology! It is technology that is the great destroyer, which comes between the hand and the world, which interposes its own cold deadness between the heart and the world”.

From Adam Nicholson's, "Seamanship, a Voyage along the Wild Coasts of the British Isles."

Thursday, April 1, 2010

End of the Month of Garbage

Garbage Update:  April 1st.  Weather today: Rain and Snow.  I'm looking forward to removing a pile of wet slushy garbage after work.  Nothing like good timing.  I took some pictures of our pile.  It's actually not nearly as bad as I thought it would be but I'm obviously glad to get rid of it.  I took a few things from this.

1st: Everything is trash.  Everything we buy is wasted.  There are no exceptions.  This is the natural form of consumption.  Even a "Homemade" meal comes in its basic ingredients from eventual waste and is itself in the end wasted to the river with no return to the soil.  Nothing cycles back to the beginning.
Our system of agriculture, by modeling itself on economics rather than biology, thus removes food from the cycle of its production and puts it into a finit, linear process that in effect destroys it by transforming it into waste.  That is, it transforms food into fuel, a form of energy that is usable only once, and in doing so it ransforms the body into a consumptive machine.   - Wendell Berry, The Body and The Earth
2nd: This waste is systemic.  Everything moves from it in an inescapable line.  Even if I recycle I'm still existing outside the natural cycle of nature and merely delaying the inevitable.  Recycling is better than not but is still a product of the system; not that recycling in this city is at all useful, accesible, or convenient.  I'll try and do it but I'll do it without hope. 

3rd: None of the things I use are a complete good to me from beginning to end.  My use of them is finite and short.  I do not get use from their birth or their death or much of in between.  By example, I'd think a tree would provide shade in its life, wood for furniture in its death, nutrients for the soil or heat from a stove in its disposal.  This is not the case.  It doesn't serve its full purpose nor will it. 

5th:  Garbage is ugly and stinky.

6th: Compost, Reduce, Recyle, Reuse.  These are our four means of trash removal and will be our four means of reducing this pile in the future.
Threw all the garbage out last night.  Filled two full two house dumpsters.  Final Count.
34 bags.
8 boxes
250 sq feet of carpet
15 nailed infested boards
1 hot water heater.